Some advice and failure.. lolololol..& some news probably?

Wassup guys!I'm here Lashton Irwin..Hey the news is Heartfilia and Dj Zee don't wanna be admin on this blog for some reasons..(secret!)..but that's not the only one news for today..& i will tell you later..reasons why i'm not posting on this blog is i'm busy writing & reading fan fiction on Wattpad..& don't judge me...And I found this 1 band name All Time Low..yeah they are awesome!!My favorite song from that band are Jasey Rae & a daydream away..And the advice is about life..Oh how i wish i have a YouTube channel that i v-log and say these words because i'm too lazy to type..but by the way..the advice is too drama and too 'life'..you know what i mean..Okay the reasons why i'm not posting for so long time on this blog because i have a cringe attack & i feel like i want to die..i sure you read this with a peaceful music background right?hahah but it's alright keep on reading..As i was saying i have a cringe attack and i feel like i want to die..It's really hard to get off it you know?,I have no one to hear or understand my problem and my life except my brother..Yeah i love him so much..He's the only one that understands me in this world..& he's really really awesome!But!I have no friends and that's the problem..And i feel lonely on this school holiday..My best friends in this world are my bed,food,laptop,wattpad and all my feelings..I feel lonely though right now..& i can't sleep for the rest of  the school Holiday..For real mate..Yep..I feel like i want to die right now because no one cares about me & i have no point to live..For god sakes,my parents are really annoying,don't understands me & i swear to god they act like they never being a teenager before and that piss me off..ffs..Why  dafuq they do that?that's really annoying as fuck..And i cut..Yet i have no friends bc my brother said if you want to get a friend go find a true friend not fake..A true friend is being there when we had problem..talking to each other problem everyday..Understands each other..I wish i have friends like that..I get lonely & depressed & i heard someone wants me to die & it's all life..Life taught us to Be strong and survive no matter what obstacle held you..You guys must be strong let no one downs you..you just have to ignore the bitches or the bullies cause they sucks so much dicks..(This is PG-13 motherfucka)..As i was saying..Get true friends cause when you find one you find who you are and your life not miserable like me..Because i'm not lucky...but ost of my friends are very lucky..(i mean like friends but not bestie or true friends just friends)..You know what?Sometimes I just hate being a girl because girls always judging people too much and so girly..I hate that!They always expecting things that never happen..& They always thinks they're so grown up..like seriously..grown up is for 15 years old..not 11 or 12 or 13 and go on..& and they annoying no matter what..Like seriously..Don't judge people or being a bitch or being a bully or something else that ruins ppl lives..cause when you judge ppl..They think no one ever loved them and cares about them..& that makes they giving up and cut till they die..I am so sorry or Amanda Todd...You are beautiful,kind and flawless..it's not your fault doing that..R.I.P Amanda Todd.. D: Sometimes you have to understands people feelings..And it's up to you which side you wanna be in life..Bad or good?I'm not only advising you guys..I also advising myself too because some people type or write down advice or they're life..They meant it & they don't have people to understands their feelings & sometimes that ever happen in they're life..Sometimes life suck bc they don't understands us...I know bc i've been through all of this everyday..I know it's hard to survive in life & it's hard when you depressed...When you depressed just think..They're someone out there who still cares about you no matter what ot look like they don't care but they really care..When you cut or taking drugs or drink alcohol or something that hurts yourselves..just think your goals in life,your crush,your friends,your future &what you gonna do after this because when you died you can't do anything after that..It's up to you how much of a good times you have when you're still alive..So if you want to suicide or anything about giving up life..just think..There's someone love you and still care about you..And ILY guys soooo much!!I'm crying right now when i remember the day i hate my life so much & i cut and my face was pale..and i was crying non-stop..I wish it will never happen..Life's hard and come on who love their life?no one right?So no matter what happen..stay strong let no one know you weak..stands up if you fall..because think there's someone will help you...SOMEDAY!

P/s:sorry for the grammar mistakes and i give advice every Sunday!

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